Monday Evening...

Been a rather odd weekend, I have been very low and tearful at times though I'm not really sure why.. not been sleeping to well, going to bed late and waking up early.. friday night I went to bed at about 3am ... but woke up again by 6am... then on saturday night I went to bed about 1am and still woke up 7am?? Not getting a good nights sleep is very draining to say the least, it makes me irritable and snappy with others around me.. today has been a pretty good day even though I did wake up early again.. I was up by 8am after only going to bed at about 1.30am..

Had a visitor over the weekend, and had a few laughs which felt good... and of course with a few drinks as well.. I deliberately don't come in here, when I've been drinking as I tend to write stuff that is on my mind and some of it can be really personal !.. so I keep the laptop turned off when I can feel myself getting a bit drunk..lol... it's weird though as when I am drunk that is generally the one time when I can really talk about stuff.. I have done so on many occasions under the influence of alcohol and it can be a good release, but my emotions are also highlighted so everything seems a hundred times worse than it really is, I get tearful and remorseful if I've had to much... so have to be careful what I say if others are around me.. certain things you just have to keep to yourself eh!

Still the weekend is over now and I get on with the day to day stuff we all call living... its not always easy but not always hard either, depends on what is going on around me and who is at home really... but another week has begun and hopefully this one will be better than the last...
This week I hope to get a lot done, I have some things that I have been putting off for a while now and hope to get them done this week, then the weekend will be here once more, I would like to say by friday that I did achieve all I set out to do, but whether I will or not is another matter.. time will tell won't it?