Sunday evening.. it's now 10.26pm

After my son's 18h birthday yesterday I must admit to being a little worse for wear this morning.. lol but it was worth it.. He was in a right mess when he got home, he'd drank far to much..lol and suffered for it last night and this morning..

I mentioned last night that I had had someone trying to get into the house again, well I spoke to my sister tonight and she told me that at about 4am this morning someone got into her house! Her carer arrived at 8am to find her front door wide open? what the hell is going on here? who is doing this to us and what the hell do they want? its getting very frightening now as my sister is bedridden and wouldn't be able to defend herself much if it came to it.. They called the police and now my sister has to go and do an Identity parade at the station next week... Hopefully she will be able to pick out the person she saw last time and the police will be able to pick them up ...

I had the memories again last night about my childhood and the pain I went through, but thankfully they weren't to bad and I was able to control them pretty much completely so they didn't take over... case of having to really as my daughter was down for her brothers birthday and I can't allow anything to happen when she is here!

In the past she has tried to claim that she was abused as a child even thought I know it in't true at all, She has basically taken my past and claimed it as hers... calling me a liar etc and disputting everything I say, after an arguement one time she actually told me that her father, My ex husband had told her I was lying! Yet we had been married at the time of the court case so he knows its true! ... We had a rather heated discussion yesterday about her father and his lack of caring for his son (her brother), he earns good money about £30,000 a year but pays just £56 a week in maintenance... no where near enough to care for a strapping 18yr old eh!.. he eats that in a few days..lol.. unfortunatley he seems to beleive her when she comes out with stories of her being raped etc.. he falls into her little make beleive world and humours her to keep the peace, not exactly the best thing to do as it just encourages her to continue with the lies... I can't handle it anymore and nowadays we don't talk about it at all.. its a taboo subject whenever she is home...


I've had a lazy day today and been learning how to do PSP on the computor.. getting pretty good at it by all accounts as well.. or so I'm being told by people in my group... Hopefully I will have a peaceful night tonight with no bad dreams or flashbacks... but if not I will deal with them as I have before.. maybe I'll just come in here and write about them to get them out...