Wednesday morning..

Its cold and wet here again as is usual here in the UK.. Finally my back is feeling better and I am able to get about without to much pain, though it's still there! But hey my own fault eh!.. should be more careful coming downstairs..

After saturday night in my chat room I tried to reflect on just how much I had told people about me! I realised that without going into detail about the rapes I had in fact told them all quite a lot which is unusual for me.. I usually find it very hard to talk about myself. Maybe this is a sign that I am slowly getting over things or that they need to be told? not sure which at the moment but either way its good for me to get it out.

I've been having this really weird dream these last few nights, all I see is my brother running away from me and I am running as well, we can't be more than about 5 or 6 yr old in the dream but I have no idea what it means? after seeing that I see this man's face with a scrawled up face, teeth bared and screaming... It scares me and I just want to get away.. then I wake up? I don't dream that anything happens and I don't know who this man is but its not pleasant..

Things here have been pretty quiet on the prowler front this past week or so! fingers crossed he's given up eh! mind you the weather has been horrible of late so that may be partly the reason.. but I hope he's given up realising that he can't get in. I had a good phone call last week from the police who told me that the lad who made the abusive call to me before Christmas has in fact been cautioned.. he has been told he is not allowed to make any contact with me at all which is re-assuring to say the least.. maybe he was something to do with the prowler? because thinking abou it its since then that its been quiet? weird eh!

Anyway have a busy day again today, lots to do to get this house move happening so I'll get off here and get on with it.. will write again soon..